Warning: Strictly not for the faint hearts.

Why do females have to appear as vulnerable and fragile to be seen as a girl?

What happens when a guy meets a girl who can speak up for herself, reads instead of hanging out in night clubs and actually enjoys online games? Are they deemed as a potential buddy or just a tomboy? Why can't people see females as the individuals they are?

Yup, there you have it. May has put on her thinking cap and is pondering all sorts of questions as usual.

Sure, I don't go ga-ga over fashion and make-up as many other XX genes humans do (and the occasional XY as well) and I don't stand around to wait for the latest news of who is the latest overrated celebrity. But that does not mean that I should not be labelled as a girl as well.

What actually makes a guy look at a girl and go "Now, there's a girl worth talking to"? Is it the miniskirt she puts on or the shade of lipstick she uses? Or the lifestyle she has that involves night clubs and gossip magazines?

What exactly has changed? Why don't I seem to be able to carry out this female image I had of myself? Seems like I'm trying to be someone that I can never be.

I want to feel safe and secure. I want to be protected. For someone to be protective over me, that's the feeling I've been craving for. I'm tired of this jealous phrase that I seem to be encountering. Feeling extremely unsatisfied that it's going nowhere.

*yawn*

I guess I should just crawl back onto my safe haven for now. Just push all those thoughts aside and just pretend to be someone I'm not. It always works for me.

Not if I don't finish up the three assignments that are currently sitting in my folder screaming, "Do you want your Distinction?!"

Pft.